"khayalan #25 : Selamat Hari Lahir Ayna Zeck !"

Assalamualaikum . . .

15th of May was my 19th birthday ! hikhik *mukagedix*

ok now i want to thanks to all you guys for the wishes and gifts and videos and birthday's songs and
everything !
appreciate that ! really~~ ='D

#1 via Message

mimi the red, hEe
sory, no hilang .

Kedink.

mama, typo la mama =="

kawan lama :]

Farah Sky

* n others [syaQ, izham dll yg send via maxis], sory, fon xleyh screen capt, hee~ thx nway .
* abah - sory gak sbb terdelete. da la msg abah plg cool ! T___T

#2 via FB

ermm, ayna mmg xletak kr profile. so mmg org xtau . ngEe~~

even korg tau sbb post org laen, thx nway . haha !

#3 via Twitter

thx !

"ye, birthday aQ"

thx !

#4 via Blog !

https://www.facebook.com/afiffaizjusoh

nice~~ :D

#5 via Post

https://www.facebook.com/amirul.rasyidin93

huh~ send semata2 . da la BM ! balasan aQ wish bday kw lmbt ea . haha

#6 via Creative Writing :DD

Farah - roomate ;D

puteri - another roomate ;D

Intan Asirah Darwis - classmate ;D

#7 via Laptop [mesti ase aneh kn]

the most special gift from a very special friend, ;D

the moment i on my lappy, i saw THIS !

sebesar2 alam dy letak kt situ !

then, i watch the video . . . u know what, she's singing "I'm Only Me When I'm With You_Taylor Swift".

if could, i would post the video here but its 728MB !


so, here's the lyrics . . . [she'd change a lil' bit]

Friday night beneath the stars,

in a field behind your yards

you and I are paintin' pictures in the sky.

And sometimes we don't say a thing;

just listen to the crickets sing.

Everything I need is right here by my side.

And I know everything about you

I don't wanna live without you.

[Chorus:]

I'm only up when you're not down.

Don't wanna fly if you're still on the ground.

It's like no matter what I do.

Well you drive me crazy half the time;

the other half I'm only trying to let you know that what I feel is true.

And I'm only me when I'm with you.

Just a small town girl and girl

livin' in a crazy world.

Tryin' to figure out what is and isn't true.

And I don't try to hide my tears.

The secrets or my deepest fears.

Through it all nobody gets me like you do.

And you know everything about me.

You say that you can't live without me.

[Chorus]

When I'm with anybody else it's so hard to be myself.

Only you can tell.

[Chorus:]

That I'm only up when you're not down.

Don't wanna fly if you're still on the ground.

It's like no matter what I do.

Well you drive me crazy half the time;

the other half I'm only trying to let you know that what I feel is true.

And I'm only me

Who I wanna be

Well, I'm only me when I'm with you

With you

n i really LOVE this part,

screen capt from the video actually ;D

Well, that's all i can put in here . . . for those yg xterletak, jgn terasa hati especially for those yg wish via Call, n singing a song for me, thx alot . sory xleyh nk post kt cnie . simpan dlm hati je k . hikhik!

thx guys !

[mOod : excited state !]

"khayalan 24"

Assalamualaikum . . .

kenapa banyak sangat benda yang memang menguji kesabaran aQ ah . nk dikatakan dugaan 2, ada agy org laen yg dapat dugaan yang agy teruk . tapi everything happen dlm hidup aQ walaupun kecik n sikit, it still affect my life. sbb aQ jenis yang cerewet n consider many things . sO, lau bnd 2 kecik pun aQ akan pk .

kadang2 ase cam benci kt diri sdri sbb asyik buat the same mistake everytime . menyesal dgn kesilapan sdri . padahal da tau da mmg xboley patah balik masa n xdpt pape pn lau menyesal . tp still nk ase mcm 2 . bodoh kn ?

so, skrg nie xtau nak rasa ap . dy mcm marah, sdeyh but at the same time geram ngn diri sdri . sbb mmg kena salahkn diri sdri . padan muka ah , sape suh buat . xpk dulu . geramnya kat diri sdri . geram sgttt !

#kadang2 rasa cam nk lari jauh dr smua org, xnk jmpe sape2 pun . nk hidup sorg2, so that I dun hav to consider other people in making any decision . they didnt realize it anyway . sbb aQ mmg xkn tunjuk . never . so, its true . aQ mmg complicated person . aQ sdri pn xleyh nk describe aQ mcm mane . i'm not good in many things . so many things . mmg xsempurna . mmg xbaik . n sumtimes it makes me hate myself even more . haha .

[mOod : rasa mcm org pling xboley berfikir dlm dunia]

"khayalan realiti"

assalamualaikum . . .

"action speak louder than words"

it means that action hurts more than words,
so, if u really, really mad at someone, just go and hit them without saying anything because its worth it rather than juz keep saying words that doesn't really effective actually .

but, what i want to highlight here is :
please speak out loud if you want anybody to understand ur situation or waht you feel at current period [perghh , econs] ok as
if you just keep doing that emotional highjacking thingy to people around you, you actually hurts them more than anything in this world .
its painful ok, very painful . . .

if you dun want anybody in your gravity field feel guilty because u're not telling the truth , please share ur unsatisfaction . problem solved !

eventhough im the one who didn't like to share problems with others, but im a good listener, really do .


[moOd : undefined]

"khayalan #22"

Assalamualaikum . . .

patut k buat mcm 2 . bila fikir balik, memang xpatut lansung buat mcm 2. dia bkn xptt, its juz unappropriate for someone like me . kalau situasi nie berlaku kat orang laen, aQ ase da lama da orang 2 bahagia. kot~

ap aQ merepek pg2 nie ?

da la, juz follow the flow .


[mOod : gEdix~] 

"khayalan #21"

assalamualaikum . . .

stop thinking and start doing .

but . . .

am I doing the right thing ?

[kenapa aQ xleyh nk fokus utk diri sendiri ?]

[kenapa aQ nk sibuk hal orang ?]

[kalau da tau orang lain lagi bagus, dan itu boleh melemahkan semangat kita, jangan tengok orang tu. alah, cakap pandai r, ce buat nk tengok.]

[anggap je apa aQ buat sekarang da ok. yakin dan tawakkal je.]

i actually don't know what am I doing but I hope it's the best decision to make.

[mOod : uncertain]

"khayalan #20"

Assalamualaikum . . .

one day I ask the mirror,

me : mirror , mirror on the wall . what is the most special thing about me that I can be proud of ?

mirror : none.

me : hurmm , as I expected . . .

whenever I walked in public, I feel awkward.
sometimes I feel like don't want to even step out from this room.
huh~
very lack of self-confidence!

[mOod : in between]

"khayalan kedink !"

Assalamualaikum . . .

kedink . . . . .  ! ! ! ! !

lawa la . . .

aQ xsangka dy jadi cOol glEr cmniE . . . .

nasib baek buat 6 je , sbb xlarat .

[mood : bangga]