"khayalan #25 : Selamat Hari Lahir Ayna Zeck !"

Assalamualaikum . . .

15th of May was my 19th birthday ! hikhik *mukagedix*

ok now i want to thanks to all you guys for the wishes and gifts and videos and birthday's songs and
everything !
appreciate that ! really~~ ='D

#1 via Message

mimi the red, hEe
sory, no hilang .

Kedink.

mama, typo la mama =="

kawan lama :]

Farah Sky

* n others [syaQ, izham dll yg send via maxis], sory, fon xleyh screen capt, hee~ thx nway .
* abah - sory gak sbb terdelete. da la msg abah plg cool ! T___T

#2 via FB

ermm, ayna mmg xletak kr profile. so mmg org xtau . ngEe~~

even korg tau sbb post org laen, thx nway . haha !

#3 via Twitter

thx !

"ye, birthday aQ"

thx !

#4 via Blog !

https://www.facebook.com/afiffaizjusoh

nice~~ :D

#5 via Post

https://www.facebook.com/amirul.rasyidin93

huh~ send semata2 . da la BM ! balasan aQ wish bday kw lmbt ea . haha

#6 via Creative Writing :DD

Farah - roomate ;D

puteri - another roomate ;D

Intan Asirah Darwis - classmate ;D

#7 via Laptop [mesti ase aneh kn]

the most special gift from a very special friend, ;D

the moment i on my lappy, i saw THIS !

sebesar2 alam dy letak kt situ !

then, i watch the video . . . u know what, she's singing "I'm Only Me When I'm With You_Taylor Swift".

if could, i would post the video here but its 728MB !


so, here's the lyrics . . . [she'd change a lil' bit]

Friday night beneath the stars,

in a field behind your yards

you and I are paintin' pictures in the sky.

And sometimes we don't say a thing;

just listen to the crickets sing.

Everything I need is right here by my side.

And I know everything about you

I don't wanna live without you.

[Chorus:]

I'm only up when you're not down.

Don't wanna fly if you're still on the ground.

It's like no matter what I do.

Well you drive me crazy half the time;

the other half I'm only trying to let you know that what I feel is true.

And I'm only me when I'm with you.

Just a small town girl and girl

livin' in a crazy world.

Tryin' to figure out what is and isn't true.

And I don't try to hide my tears.

The secrets or my deepest fears.

Through it all nobody gets me like you do.

And you know everything about me.

You say that you can't live without me.

[Chorus]

When I'm with anybody else it's so hard to be myself.

Only you can tell.

[Chorus:]

That I'm only up when you're not down.

Don't wanna fly if you're still on the ground.

It's like no matter what I do.

Well you drive me crazy half the time;

the other half I'm only trying to let you know that what I feel is true.

And I'm only me

Who I wanna be

Well, I'm only me when I'm with you

With you

n i really LOVE this part,

screen capt from the video actually ;D

Well, that's all i can put in here . . . for those yg xterletak, jgn terasa hati especially for those yg wish via Call, n singing a song for me, thx alot . sory xleyh nk post kt cnie . simpan dlm hati je k . hikhik!

thx guys !

[mOod : excited state !]

"khayalan 24"

Assalamualaikum . . .

kenapa banyak sangat benda yang memang menguji kesabaran aQ ah . nk dikatakan dugaan 2, ada agy org laen yg dapat dugaan yang agy teruk . tapi everything happen dlm hidup aQ walaupun kecik n sikit, it still affect my life. sbb aQ jenis yang cerewet n consider many things . sO, lau bnd 2 kecik pun aQ akan pk .

kadang2 ase cam benci kt diri sdri sbb asyik buat the same mistake everytime . menyesal dgn kesilapan sdri . padahal da tau da mmg xboley patah balik masa n xdpt pape pn lau menyesal . tp still nk ase mcm 2 . bodoh kn ?

so, skrg nie xtau nak rasa ap . dy mcm marah, sdeyh but at the same time geram ngn diri sdri . sbb mmg kena salahkn diri sdri . padan muka ah , sape suh buat . xpk dulu . geramnya kat diri sdri . geram sgttt !

#kadang2 rasa cam nk lari jauh dr smua org, xnk jmpe sape2 pun . nk hidup sorg2, so that I dun hav to consider other people in making any decision . they didnt realize it anyway . sbb aQ mmg xkn tunjuk . never . so, its true . aQ mmg complicated person . aQ sdri pn xleyh nk describe aQ mcm mane . i'm not good in many things . so many things . mmg xsempurna . mmg xbaik . n sumtimes it makes me hate myself even more . haha .

[mOod : rasa mcm org pling xboley berfikir dlm dunia]

"khayalan realiti"

assalamualaikum . . .

"action speak louder than words"

it means that action hurts more than words,
so, if u really, really mad at someone, just go and hit them without saying anything because its worth it rather than juz keep saying words that doesn't really effective actually .

but, what i want to highlight here is :
please speak out loud if you want anybody to understand ur situation or waht you feel at current period [perghh , econs] ok as
if you just keep doing that emotional highjacking thingy to people around you, you actually hurts them more than anything in this world .
its painful ok, very painful . . .

if you dun want anybody in your gravity field feel guilty because u're not telling the truth , please share ur unsatisfaction . problem solved !

eventhough im the one who didn't like to share problems with others, but im a good listener, really do .


[moOd : undefined]

"khayalan #22"

Assalamualaikum . . .

patut k buat mcm 2 . bila fikir balik, memang xpatut lansung buat mcm 2. dia bkn xptt, its juz unappropriate for someone like me . kalau situasi nie berlaku kat orang laen, aQ ase da lama da orang 2 bahagia. kot~

ap aQ merepek pg2 nie ?

da la, juz follow the flow .


[mOod : gEdix~] 

"khayalan #21"

assalamualaikum . . .

stop thinking and start doing .

but . . .

am I doing the right thing ?

[kenapa aQ xleyh nk fokus utk diri sendiri ?]

[kenapa aQ nk sibuk hal orang ?]

[kalau da tau orang lain lagi bagus, dan itu boleh melemahkan semangat kita, jangan tengok orang tu. alah, cakap pandai r, ce buat nk tengok.]

[anggap je apa aQ buat sekarang da ok. yakin dan tawakkal je.]

i actually don't know what am I doing but I hope it's the best decision to make.

[mOod : uncertain]

"khayalan #20"

Assalamualaikum . . .

one day I ask the mirror,

me : mirror , mirror on the wall . what is the most special thing about me that I can be proud of ?

mirror : none.

me : hurmm , as I expected . . .

whenever I walked in public, I feel awkward.
sometimes I feel like don't want to even step out from this room.
huh~
very lack of self-confidence!

[mOod : in between]

"khayalan kedink !"

Assalamualaikum . . .

kedink . . . . .  ! ! ! ! !

lawa la . . .

aQ xsangka dy jadi cOol glEr cmniE . . . .

nasib baek buat 6 je , sbb xlarat .

[mood : bangga]

"khayalan #18"

Assalamualaikum . . .

kEnapa khayalan #18 ? sbb niE Entry yg k-18 n aynada xtau nk tulis tajuk ap . . haha !

Ok , blOg yg sEnantiasa sEpi tanpa Entry ini akhirnya diupdatE . . .

Hal ini dEmikian disEbabkan saya tElah DI-TAG olEh YaYa utk menjawab sOalan yg dy buat 2 . . .

hurmmm , dEmi sEorang rakan aQ yg mls tahap gunung Himalaya niE pun jawabla dgn sE=ikhlas hatinya~ [wOaaaa !]


Soalan yg dibEri ialah:

1) are you proud enough of what u have now??

yEs, but . . . nO.

2) do u always stalk the person that u like?

nO , nOt all d timE, but . . . yEs.

3) Name something you do when you're alone that you wouldn't do in front of others. 

being without others because you can only do it alone . . .

4) what is the stupidest things you have ever done?

accepting Izu Atikah as a friend becuase you get 4 mischievous items that you can never get anywhere else.

5) have u seen something really weird throughout ur life?

Yes . Izu Atikah and her 4 mischievous items.

6) are u HOT stuff kind of person... describe if yes n describe why if u ans is no...

absolutely yes because I tend to be a HOT-HEADED person as I have the stupidest thing mentioned above as my roomate.

7) do u miss anyone right now??

yes. my stupidest thing mentioned above.

8) what is the best compliment u have ever received... 

Izu Atikah : ayna keding

9) what is the meanest things anyone has said to you?

Izu Atikah :  ayna keding 

10) ocean n pool ... which one u prefer.. why??

ocean ! 

#because I can go shopping .

why ??

please click

11) have u ever been dumped?

sumpah . NO !

now ! instant payback~

1. What do you feel when you found out you are required to answer this meme?
2. Why do you feel that way? Elaborate the above question in 80 words.
3. Imagine you are a girl. Will you fall for someone who doesn't love you back?
4. Do you treat all your female friends the same?
5. Do you wish for a serious relationship beyond friendship at the moment?
6. If you answer no in Q5, what is your main focus at the moment?
7. Imagine you are a boy. What would you do to a girl who loves you but you do not love her back?
8. Do you wish that she from Q7 will understand the situation?
9. How do you wish her from Q7 to react when she found out your actual feeling?
10. Do you wish the friendship from Q7 to never end?
11. Is everything that you wrote above sincerely true?

revenge of the fallen goes to :

1. Afif

2. Faiz

3. Afif Faiz

4. Afif Faiz Jusoh

5. AFJ

6. Kedink

7. PakCik KediNk

8. Afif KediNk

9. Sebatang Tiang Jalanan

10. whatheartsay

11. semua di atas

[mood : hepy n excited]

"khayalan fuhhhh , cuak bEb"

assalamualaikum . . .

baru hbs klaz arini . . . pErghhhh , mula sEm baru niE byk bnda nk kEna sEttlE . . . .

cErtain2 papEr da dpt . . . markah ? xyah ckp aa . truk punyEr lah . ttbE aQ tEr-pk . . . mampu k aQ niE , nk hadapi smua bnda niE . 

banyak sgt bEnda yg aQ kEna tEmpuhi sEm 2 niE  . sEm 3 xyah ckp la , sEm air mata [ bak kata cikgu2 dan sEniOr2 ]

Otak aQ niE xbErhEnti2 duk pk , ap aQ nk buat . . .ap aQ ptt buat . 

bilatgk mmbE2 , classmatEs smua dpt markah pOwer2 . . . aQ asE ca aQ niE kEcik sgt . i fEel micrOscOpic times tEn to d pOwEr Of nEgative twElve . . . asl la mEreka2 2 bOley sEtErer 2 ah , ap diOrg buat ?

kjE2 magazinE xsiap agy . . . 

Org da cari rEsearch QuEstion lama da . . . aQ xtau nk buat ap agy . . . EE a.k.a ExtendEd Essay !!!! asal la kw hadir lam hidup aQ ah . . . niE agy satu mslh . aQ xtau nk pilih subjEk ap . aQ juz ad 6 pilihan subjEk . nk buat BM - cikgu da nk bErsara taun dEpan , hEncE kEmungkinan aQ da hilang cOnsultant kat c2 . aQ xkisah , cikgu yg xnk .

nk buat BI - pErghhh , alamat tunggang langgang la languagE aQ .

EcOns ??? cikgu plak nk sambung blaja , sO , dy ckp dy xbyk masa nk sEmak EE aQ . . .

subjEk sciEncE??? phy , chEm . . . aQ xdE idEa la nk buat ExpErimEnt ap . . .

maths - ini adalah subjEk yg jarang sgt2 dijadikan EE . . .

sO , ap aQ ptt buat skrg . . . . 

duE datE utk intErviEw and prEsent rEsEarch QuEstion ialah jEng . . . jEng . . . jEng . . . 23JANUARY2012 !

da xlama da .

Esok ad subjEk briEfing utk EE . . . cuak2 . . . fuhhhhh~ 

ap sEyh aQ ptt buat . . . ap sEyh idEa yg ad . . . wahai Otak , kEmukakanlah usul mu . . . 

IA EcONs . . . 

masalah baru yg baru sahaja tiba masa klaz last td . . . 

kEna cari tOPic lam 3rEsOurce yg bErbEza . . . 

pErghh , xcari agy niE . . . 

2la gEdix sgt , bukan nk cari awl2 , kn cikgu da suh mula buat . nk cari agy . . . adOiiiii , mana nk cari magazinE sal Economy . . . mmg bOley dpt kat kEdai2 , tp bila ??? bOley dikatakan EvEry wEekend aQ utk bulan niE n bulan dEpan , FULLY BOOKED !!!!

English . . .

ad IA gak . . . 

nk kEna baca nOvEl bErsiri plak 2 , xstart baca agy . . . 

gEdix sgt xnk baca awl2 knapE ???? kn da tErkEjar2 . . . .

da la kw 2 bi cam bayi mErangkak kw tau x . . . ?? !!

BM . . . .

fuhhh , nOvEl blOm start baca agy niE . . . 

bila nk start ???

Oral . . . . mEnakutkan~

PHYSICS - ura2 mEngatakan PHYSICS HL(high level) adalah subjEk paling susah dlm IB . . .

sbb . . . . ad tOpic additiOnal high lEvel . . . dan sOaln2 yg mEmerlukan kamOo utk bErfikir sEkritikal yg mungkin . . . . .. 

sO , bOley k aQ survivE niE . . . .

ttbE tErdEtik asE kat aty , ruginya xambik BIO . . . tp , mEnyEsal 2 xElOk kn . . .

knapE ah aQ bOley jd mcm niE . . . aQ asE aQ da xmcm masa aQ kat samura . . . aina yg dulu da xdE . . . mana ah aQ nk dptkn aQ yg dulu 2 ??? ap aQ buat ah masa kat asrama dulu . 

napE dulu aQ bOley buat skrg xbOley . . .

tiap2 ari aQ bgn pg , aQ akan pk , cnEr nk dptkn aQ yg dulu . cnEr nk jd mcm dulu . . .

skrg niE aQ byk maEn k ??

myb aQ byk bazirkn masa aQ . . . utk bnd2 bkn study kOt . . . .

pErghhh ayna , kw da hanyut Ea ? hanyut dalam khayalan fantasi yg kw cipta sendiri ?

yg xmungkin jd kEnyataan ,

kw da hilang fOkus ayna . . . niat kw da xbtOl . . . mana matlamat kw ayna . . . kw lEtak mana bnd 2 smua . . . 

sElama niE kw da harungi smua bnda niE sbb ap ayna ? kw kEna igt balik . . . .

tp kEnapa , walaupun aQsEdar smua bnda 2 , tp aQ still xdpt buat papE . . .

aQ mcm da hilang , da kOsong . . . da xdE arah tuju . . . 

Subhanallah . . . 

aQ asE bErdEbar2 , takut nk hadapi hari EsOk walaupun aQ tau EsOk itu akan tiba . dan ap yg pErlu aQ buat adalah bErsEdia mEnghadapinya . . . . 

xdE sapE bOley phm pErasaan aQ skrg . . . aQ takut sgt xlEpas pOintEr, takut sgt xlEh fly, sbb 2 jE jln yg aQ ad utk bErjaya . . . aQ kEna fly , lau x aQ xkEmana2 . . . kalau aQ bgtau kat sapE2 pun , diOrg cuma akan ckp aQ bOley buat . tp mErEka2 2 xtau hakikat sEbEnar . . . kElemahan aQ , aQ sOrang jE tau . Org pandang aQ nampak aQ niE hEbat , pEriang , xdE masalah . . . tp aQ sebEnarnya sEorang manusia biasa yg bijak mEnutup kElemahan diri . aQ sEbenarnya lagi lEmah dr bayi . . . 

[mOod : rEsah]